Dear Friends,
I have a soft bottom again, so the idea of a spanking is scary.  I miss having a tough bottom, but don't want to do what it takes to get it back. 

Recently I applied for a new job.  So far the response is a deafening silence.  I feel a bit on edge wondering when/if they'll call and if not, why not?  Gus wants me to call them, but I just don't know what to say.  The truth is I don't know if I even want the job.

I think I could do it well, so that part is appealing.  I don't feel like I do my current job very well at all.  This new possibility feels like a better fit with my particular interests and skills.  But, it is a responsible job with full time hours, and I just don't know if I have that in me.  It seems like a lot to take on.

I know lots of submissive women are tigers in the board room, but I'm not sure I want that.  I do know that my man is strong enough to stay in charge of me, so there is comfort in that.

I'm not sure if this post makes sense or is even about spanking.  I'm just exploring some thoughts right now.
Happy spanking, everyone.
Maryann